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Well I haven't written in quite sometime...not a lot has been going on! I however, have been writing a lot in my journal (real journal that is)... Last week I hung out with this guy Brian that I met on Myspace...turns out he's a true Pot Head so therefore he's scratched...Then one night I went to Sahara with my two cousins it was actually very boring but for some reason I didn't want to leave...my cousin did so I told them to leave me and that I would take the train home...well Alison wanted to leave and the train wasnt departing for another two hours so this guy Jimmy whom I was talking to all night offered to drive me home. So Alison left and I was left with the former Marines Officer Jimmy...sounds attractive right? NO! We had a pretty good conversation up until I started to sober up and realized that this guy wanted to jump into a serious relationship right off the bat...As if I actually wanted to date him...Now here's the catch I dont have the balls to just tell someone to FUCK OFF! So I continued talking to him going along with his plan and agreeing with pretty much everything that he said..."hhhmmmhhmms and oh yes thats right" and the thing is this whole week I've been thinking about my social and sex life (considering that it even exists) now at this point of the night I knew that I didnt want the night to end up with me waking up in the morning saying to myself "What the fuck did I do last night" Granted the conversation we were having was quite appealing touching upon many topics including politics, marriage, children, age BTW he's 30! the age however doesnt bother what does bother me is that #1 he's not that cute...wait he's not at all #2 he lives in like a shack #3 he's unemployed and will soon be a security gaurd at your local Walgreen's or his #1 choice Macy's...can we say another Jesse. Why do I attracted these losers do I have some sort of sign on my forehead that says "ALL IDIOTS, BUMS, ALCOHOLICS, AND DRUG ADDICTS WELCOME" WTF its just annoying. Anyway in the midst of the conversation we were having he leaned over and kissed me...good kisser but when I opened my eyes I was like Ewww No I'm not going to let this happen...an of course I didnt. He dropped me off at home and I slept all day. When I woke up he texted me twice calling me sweety and shit Can you say DESPERATE. So I called just to be nice and asked him how is day was and he continued by telling me what he wants out of a relationship and I flat out told him that my parents are very strict about who I go out with which is such bullshit! But for some reason that didnt sink in his middle name must be Perserverance! So he was like okay well call me tomorrow and thats exactly when I thought to myself if this guy cant get the point thats when Amal has to get nasty unfortunately...therefore there will be no phone picking up or returning texts or giving him the time of day as a mere human being. anyways so today I had a kind of date with this guy Matt who went to my highschool but graduated when I was a freshman I also met him on Myspace but I remember meeting him before. But this guys at least cute and seems some what human like...so we'll see how this goes! Why does this shit have to be so difficult the thing is I dont go out looking for shit like this it just comes to me in a nice neat package...however once opened explodes all over my face! Okay well I have to go get ready for coffee with this guy I will update later on! and please comment I think Im gonna go crazy!